Reflections From the Full Moon

Every full moon, I am feel my spirit pull at me in ways I cannot describe. I feel a very intimate connection with the moon and my Divine feminine energy. I take time every moon to host a space for reflection, meditation and self inventory.

Most full moon nights, I escape to the mountains in Greene. I find I am rooted here, as I grew up in the county. Green, the color, is also the color of the heart chakra. I go hear to allow my heart to speak. When I am here, I feel so close to the moon, like I could reach out and touch her. I love the way her light makes the shadows of the trees dance and how the starry, night sky, twinkles with magic and mystery. I am open, vulnerable, in my mothers arms, cradled and rocked and told I am the magic and mystery and beauty that is in this moment. I find myself talking out loud, crying, screaming, expressing myself through song, and dance and an outpouring of emotion that I feel I need to express. I let every emotion I feel come out, so I can transform and experience the growth I need to expand as a being.

Tonight the moon was extremely powerful for me, as I awakened to parts of myself I have hidden and tried to escape, but ultimately I was left with. And it is within the solitude and moments of deep reflection and earth shattering silence, that I am able to hear. I hear what is in my heart, what wise words I already hold inside. In this moment I am in need of hearing what is buried inside to take to heart to grow. I felt my eyes fill up with tears as heavy as the ocean. I release them and all the emotions that flow out from within me, once trapped and now free to return to the universe. I feel the cleansing that tears bring me. I am a Pisces and water is a powerful force in my life.

The first full moon of 2017, I was at the top of Massanutten mountain and I danced and sang and howled and felt the moon tell me this year would change me. I heard correctly. I remember on this night, I visited some horses which I often do on a full moon evening, especially white horses. They reflect the moonlight in a way that makes me feel like I can escape and ride off into the clouds and dance in the night sky. White horses make me feel a connection with the afterlife. I feel one day when my spirit is no longer in my body, I will ride off into the night of a full moon. Racing in the clouds that dance in the night sky.

At the horse barn, I heard an owl off in the distance. I was immediately drawn in, as I felt her speak to me. I walked closer to dark forest edge where she stay hidden but clearly sounding her wisdom. I began to talk out loud to her and with every question, she would reply to me. This conversation went on for quite a while, and was one I will cherish and remember. Tonight, I was blessed with an owl right outside my home. Sending blessings of protection and spiritual insight and the wisdom and guidance I needed to continue to grow. I am very connected to owls, as well. They appear to me often, and every time I am grateful for their wisdom and blessings.

One full moon a few years ago, I visited a bridge that I love near my home. I was on the bridge looking into the moon and dropping rocks that were made wishes into the water below. As I stood there, I felt a strong presence I had never felt before behind me. As I turned around, I was graced with the presence of a white owl. I was immediately entranced and mesmerized by her beauty and spirit. She was calling me to her. I walked closer and closer to her until I got within arms reach, when she took her head and turned it in a way that said to me that I was to look at things differently to understand and gain perspective of life challenges. She then looked directly into my eyes, in a way that truly went to the core of my being and transformed a part of my soul. I felt one with her and I felt she was gifting me with her wisdom and sight. She then, extended her wings out, in all her glory , as I stood in awe. And without a flap of her wings, she levitated right off of the bridge into the night sky, to begin her flight back to the other world to which she visited me from.

This experience was one I will forever remember, as I felt she gifted me with all of her spiritual wisdom. I keep a painting of an owl in my living room, to remind me always of that experience, and my deep, connection with owls.

I am grateful that the beginning of this year, I was blessed by an owl and again tonight, on the last full moon of the year. May we use the full moon, as a guide into ourselves. To reflect and see deep within our darkness, to bring them into our clear sight, to transform ourselves into peaceful beings. Moon blessings to you.

As I write this, a poem came to me and I feel sharing is pertinent. It came to me as:

Magic Mother Moon

Many moons, have come and gone

Each reveal to my heart, a song

A sweet, familiar melody, plays once again

Moonlight dance, my shadow she spins

Twisting and twirling, forever unfurling

Darkness transformed in her light, my soul forever she remain bright